Monday, January 30, 2017

Goodbye friend

Its been so long now
I only remember you in flashes

Your tiny little canines
That show only when you laugh really loud
Your eyes, with the really long lashes
Your thickly set eyebrows
And that dimple you get on your chin when you smile

Oh yes, I do remember you
But not very fondly
Only a memory of you
Is enough to make me feel as if
The air around me is thickening
Suffocating me, as I end up gasping for life

I am glad you are disappearing
From my mind
One day, I hope to struggle to recall your name

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Disappointment

Sometimes, these words
Feel like poor translations
Of a poem this heart is yearning to write

How disappointing it feels
When words fail you
Words, that you have spent an entire lifetime
Gathering and preserving
A plethora of them just resting on your bookshelf
In the hope of one day putting them all together on a string
In a way that would feel just right

Well, for now
I shall just bore you
With the story of words
That have decided to become
Unattainable


Sunday, January 8, 2017

Kisses

Were your kisses always so gentle?
Like butterflies fleetingly touching my lips
And then over, and over again
Freely bestowed, as if they cost you nothing
And yet, leave me richer with every touch
This must be why I had fallen for you
In the first place
Your kisses leave me content
That, in this moment

I am right where I should be.

Thursday, January 5, 2017

Only the beginning

I guess its often easy
To lose perspective
Of everything I am yet to live with you

No, we are not old news
Everyday I discover new things about you
That freckle on your cheek
That mark on your back
Your love for old films
Your weakness for sad songs

I am yet to find out
How your face is going to look
When we bungee jump off the highest tower in the country
Or the way you will look
When we learn to ice skate together
I have many memories to make with you
Many days to fill with you
Many lives to live with you

 You and I, we are only at the beginning

And I cannot wait to leap into forever

Friday, December 16, 2016

I am still looking for
All the pieces of me
I shattered around you
When I first met you

Like a snowball
I had exploded against you
Into a million tiny pieces
I have been resurrected
And I am learning anew
How to be a person
Finding bits of me, here and there
And hanging onto them
I am gathering
Bit by bit
Parts of a person
To become whole

I will get there
But until then
Bear with me
Sometimes, I act as if
I am not myself
And I think now you know why

Wednesday, November 16, 2016

Without you

Without you
There is no poetry
The words won't rhyme
The pen dries up
and slips on paper
Speechlessly

Without you
There is no song
No music
No rhythm
Not even silence
Just a periodic thumping
In the background
Of the hours that refuse to pass away

Without you
The rooms are empty
The picture frames
Glance nervously around
Conscious of the empty space
Inside themselves

Without you
There's no poetry
Or prose
Or even enough words
To describe the hollow
That you leave within

Thursday, October 13, 2016

Reverie

That night
Lying in your balcony
Blowing smoke in each other's face
Pink Floyd blared in the background
As neither of us
Thought much about
That moment that we were living in
Where our legs are wrapped around each other
And we are looking out at the silent night
The quiet only broken
By the cars
Rushing past us on the highway

That night must have been extraordinary
'Cause years later
I am sitting in my car
The same song blaring on the radio
As a man walks by flicking his cigarette at me
And all at once
Your face flashes before my eyes
A part of me is still hooked on to you
As I just sit there, lost
While the world rushes past me
Unaware of the chaos within