Sunday, September 21, 2008

THANK YOU!!!

i am so thankful to god that my mom os finally getting better and i know some part of the credit goes to all those who read my last blog...

thank you ppl and bless you and your families!!!

Monday, September 1, 2008

Please read the whole blog......

i so badly want to write about something that has been confusing me all this while...

i dont know why but some things about how this world actually functions has been confusing me... there have been things that have happened to the so many people around me that i am left with no explanations to what has god been doing to my friends ...

my mother is a wonderful lady but right now she is so unwell and suffers has already been operated because of stones and is soon going to have another operation ....

not only this, one of my friends mom was a few months back, diagonosed with breast cancer and had an operation and is in so much pain now...and the lady is so good that when you would meet her, you would think that you have known her for ages, so friendly and just so wonderful...

one of my favourite teachers, and a strong believer of god, has diabetes at such high stage that one of her feet has to be amputed to prevent it from spreading.....

i mean why it has to happen to these good people only...

right now i actually feel that it would really have been so much better if i would have been the one who would have had to go through all this and not my friends.... because they are so much more good than i am and maybe if i take their pains, i would do some good too...

please please people , whenever you read this, do pray for these people and ask god to bless them so they get well soon...if not theirs, maybe our prayers help them...

please utter a little prayer the moment you read it and ask god to give the whole world good health, even you and your family, its necessary...please do......

Sunday, August 24, 2008

A few realisations!!!

there's a kind of a guilty feeling inside me since I wrote my last blog.....
something that i dont like about it....
What i have been thinking is that i shouldn't have written those horrible things about him...and I also kinda feel sorry for him when i hear other people saying bad stuff about him....
I feel its not his fault what he does....
I dont know.... I feel that i am on the way of becoming a good girl...and i have realised that u get nothing by holding grudges against other people ....
its not really difficult to forgive him and the good part is that he doesnt bother me anymore....whatever he does now just appears foolish and not irritating anymore...

there are things that i have been realising for some days and my head seems to be overloaded...
we get so easily bothered by little things....things like abuses and back-biting and sometimes guilty feelings that dont leave us very easily....
but what i have learnt and all of us should learn is to forgive-us and others ...
come on....everybody makes mistakes sometime or the other.....and after all,its totally human....

there is no point in punishing yourself or anybody else in that matter, it gives only temporary satisfaction....
there was this wonderful quote i read somewhere..."the best punishment u can give ur enemy is to forgive him" and i now realise its so true....

I think the best way to be popular and be loved is to be kind, loving and innocent...
these powerful positive feelings attract everybody and u are like a magnet attracting ppl all around you...

Try helping , forgiving ar being nice to someone for a day and experience the peace of mind i am in these days....
and its actually wonderful.....
and the easy part about it is that its actually easy....

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

THAT GUY WHO IRRITATES!!!!!!!

Its been a long time since I last wrote a blog........But today the temptation to write was irresistible....
This blog i dedicate to a weird boy who can be merely recognised by the discription i give of him in this blog....
This guy is famous with many names like papa, uncle, PK and brandy....
He is , as ppl say and as i think too, pretty intelligent and hard-working....
But when one is so skillful, he must learn to be humble....
You might just say that I am jealous or something but that is what i used to think earlier that i think that way just because i am jealous ....
But after pondering over the matter, what i have realised is that i am not jealous and certainly not of him.....
i mean how wud u feel when a guy keeps giving u smug looks all the time and in the tution....keeps looking at u and keeps laughing....
and would appear to be highly proud...
is always in the midst of a stupid gang of guys.....
who all keep laughing at you and are proud of the fact that they are his best friends....
and always makes you think that he wants to appear superior to you....
keeps shouting answers in the class and u never get a chance to give them however hard u try.....
its not that i mind the fact that he gives answers but i do mind that after he gives them, he looks at me to see if i had the answer or not....
I dont mind if he scores in the tests, its his problem....but i do have a problem if he asks his friends to go and see my marks and compare....
I mean i never harmed him or abused him, whats wrong with him.....what problem does he have with me.....
huh, I swear, next time he laughs at me, i m gonna STRANGLE HIM TO DEATH.....

Sunday, July 13, 2008

???????????!!!!!!!!

Today's day has been a mess....
I don't know why i am so confused....
I mean tell me...How would u ,personally feel if u would want 2 things....completely different from each other...and it is pretty obvious that 2 of them cannot be achieved together....
and none of them practically seem realistic....
I am splitting my head apart and am pretty close to wish for a third thing that is nearly ready to go in a third direction....
I feel really lame sometimes....
Anyways....
while going in the car today....i got my usual flash of thoughts and realised something....
i realised that its not just me , i think 95% of my species suffers from the same problems that i do from....
i realised that there is a little dreamer inside of us....
leading to utter confusion, more complications and yes birth of a hypocrite inside each of us....
that denies its own existence and leads to simply more complications....
well, this blog was pretty confusing in itself...
if any of u there can detangle me....most welcome to be my friend....
this is like getting over my head...
and is so very COMPLICATED!!!!

Saturday, July 12, 2008

My Utopain World!!!

Love, trust, faith and innocence ..... these words seem to be so simple but yet carry a very-aery deep meaning under them...

This blog, i dedicate to my utopain world , a world of my dreams, a world that seems to be so ideal to me.....
a world that i would like my future generations to live in, a world that nurtures inside every human being.....

I have always wanted a world free of corruption, hatred, miseries...a world where people live inside the beautiful thick forests of the four abstracts a mentioned.... love, trust , Faith and innocence....

my Utopian world is not exactly idealistic...

This world is just entirely human...
Nobody has to be embarrassed or has to regret anything that they say or do....
It is just okay to make mistakes sometimes(To err is so human), to freak out sometimes, or even make a fool of yourself or fool around....And even for guys ,its just okay to cry....
because every feels bad once in while and everybody cries....

Its not supposed to be a very big deal....
In my world humans will be superior not because they have the power to control others but the power of forgiveness....
Animals and all other elements of nature will be mutually respected and harmony will surely prevail....

This a world that all of us would want to reside....
And we are the only ones that have the power to make it possible...
This world resides in each of us...
and we can create such a world by starting small...like an act of little forgiveness or love or anything...
we just gotta make a move and put a bit of effort...
We can and we will...

Thursday, July 10, 2008

The pursuit of happiness...

This blog is dedicated to a movie that really inspired me and has actually affected my senses...

I refer to the movie the pursuit of happiness...
I do not intend to narrate the story...no...
i just intend to share what i learnt...
Happiness is somethi9ng that you cannot attain...no...happiness is not something you can have forever ...happinesss is something that can only be chased...
no one in this world is entirely happy...
All of us always have something to or the other to complain about...
its not bad...infact its entirely human...
but what matters is the fact that how one reponds to them...
if you keep cribbing about it, you get nothing at all..
its only when you can actually do something about it and finally have fa reason to pursue happiness again...

Friday, July 4, 2008

Reading between the lines....

I have now been in US for approximately 2 weeks and what i have realised so far is it is not at all like what i had heard so far....
People here are highly friendly , smile more often and are certainly more civilised...
another that i was really surprised by was that here people are helpful too....maybe i can say this because i have not lived here for a long time but isn't it better than just looking at the shortcomings of the place???
anyways , that was not what i actually wanted to talk about....
what i actually saw was something like reading between the lines....
it was another thing that i noticed...
while sitting in the subway metro...i noticed many people talking or murmuring to themselves...even when they were listening to music...they didn't didn't actually seemed to be enjoying it...they were lost...lost in the miseries that they keep trying to hide by a fake smile, a laugh....
have u ever thought how busy we have become with ourselves that we don't even have time to just go and thank people who ever made did us a favour, just go and meet an old friend in trouble and go and tell him or her that all's gonna be just okay....
or may be just look at towards the sky and thank god for giving you such a wonderful life and admire what you have got....
ever thought of stop complaining and start being satisfied...
half of the people are actually unhappy just because they are unhappy with whatever they have...
they spend there life competing uselessly and at the end all they couldn't realise is
"life is like a highway,there will always be someone ahead of you and always someone behind you,all that matters is your attitude"

i have said this before so many times and i still say that...love ,smile ,laugh...
You never know if you'll live tomorrow or not...but dont die unsatisfied... feel blessed everyday that you have got another wonderful day to live... if things go too bad, just believe that everything has a happy ending and move on...
spread love happiness and be satisfied because u did a gr8 job in your life,U MADE SOMEONE SMILE,and ur life was so successful....

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Nature Rocks!!!

The day before yesterday, we were in a car driving on a highway when i noticed the jungles on either side of the highway....
the trees were so expetionally beautiful that even through the thick crowd of cars on the road, they stood so clearly noticeable...
I had nearly lost myself in that vast beautiful jungle when i was brought back to the little car....
There was a conversation going on how the new sidewalk in the holmdel city of NJ destroyed the natural beauty of the place....
I only partially agreed with what they said...
Looking at the trees on either side of me ,i realised that a sidewalk can never destroy the beauty of nature...nature is too pretty to be destroyed by a concrete structure...isn't it?
Cutting trees must be a brave task...
i mean destroying a thing so beautiful must be difficult... really tough...
I mean how can nature be so perfect???
ever looked at the animals around you?
ever noticed the innocence in their eyes?
i wonder how people kill animals for their fur,meat or any of their products...
how can they so easily ignore their cries of pain...
and how can people actually use those products knowing that the animal was killed so mercilessly...
i know some of the you non- vegetarians must not agree with what i am saying...
but being a human, u must be having a heart and u must be realizing that what i am saying is not wrong...
why can't we just let animals be...as they are...why cant we just be happy with being vegetarians...
i know plants are alive too but atleast visible pain should not go unnoticed...isn't it??
i am not trying to convert the non-vegetarians....its just upon them to think...just give a little thought....
anyways, coming back to nature, i don't think there is a single flaw in it...
and trust me, if god is the one who created this all, i am his biggest fan...

Monday, June 30, 2008

Realizing Self-worth!!!

One of my favourite lines are,"To the world u might just be one person, but to one person ,u might be the world"...
More than any disease like leprosy and cancer...more ppl suffer from the disease called the lack of self-worth....

often we find ourselves thinking...What am i in this world for?Am i any use?will my life ever make a difference? And so on...These questions might be endless but the answer is one...YES...



U r worth...



what i have realised so far is we are all sent on this earth for a special purpose... it might be really small...it might also include just helping someone...

so just keep helping....

we often find ourselves comparing our actions and our image with those of others...

we want to become this and that and often like one of those popular guys or gals...

but finally we end up realising that we didnt have to be one of them...we just had to be ouselves...



there is one of my cousions....he seems so perfect...just so perfect...

he is already select in MIT.is a maths genius, has already devoted more than 500 hours of his little life already in socil service(volunteering for social causes), and is musically talented..,he is also an athlete and is a part of NJ national running team... he is doing everything that gives him satisfaction which brings him even closer to perfection...

we dont have to be like him to be satisfied...
we just have to be ourselves...and if u are able to help even five ppl faithfully, if u r able to make a few ppl smile ,if u r able to spread even a little bit of love....
Ur life was successful .and u can die completely satisfied, because your life was some worth,
u certainly helped a few ppl live a better life and most of all...
u helped make this world a better place to live...
And that was all u were ever expected to do....
try doing it today and trust me, u'll sleep satisfied...

Thursday, June 26, 2008

My First Heartbreak!!!

I know this is a weird topic to write your very first blog... but i think all of us,at least the teenagers ,do suffer heartbreaks at least once...so may be my my experience just helps you to uncomplicate some things at least ....



so this is the way it goes...

there was this guy at the tuition... he wasn't really handsome or something... but i liked him... and was obsessed with him for one whole year...

And after 10th standard , he went for his studies to Delhi(no,he didnt go to delhi but thts the safest and the most general place that i can name)... and he was gone ... and ithought that i would never see him again.. never ever....



and i cant say that i was entirely sad ... coz i knew that i had just got a chance to move on and finally overcome my long term obsession....



But it turns out that i was actually wrong...

the problem was we were friends.... And so he called me up...All the way from delhi....

And trust me, i can't say i was really happy about it... Because i was scared, scared of falling in love with him....again...
In the beginning when we had first met, and i had first fallen in love with him, i had thought that he was not like the other boys, that he was different...
But it turned out that i was wrong again....
He was the same kind...Flirt....liar ....And highly insensitive...
after a few days that he had been there...he called....and kept calling again and again(generally,as a friend)and was then that he started saying things like 'i love you' and stuff...and i actually believed him....
and then it turns out that he was doing it all for a few laughs...

I might not be a big deal for many girls...those who actually understand boys and understand their insensitivity... but it was a very big deal for me...me who expects every human being to atleast have the basic human feelings....

and my heart had broken that day... not because he didn't love me...i didn't want a relationship either....
but because ,my trust had broken, trust on him that he would understand, atleast him, who's beliefs had seemed to be so perfect..........
but that doesn't mean that i am going to punish myself by losing a friend......
its all his fault that he did not understand... and i think i am going yo forgive him for that.......

i can't spend my whole life holding grudges against people....i have to move on.......