Monday, June 30, 2008

Realizing Self-worth!!!

One of my favourite lines are,"To the world u might just be one person, but to one person ,u might be the world"...
More than any disease like leprosy and cancer...more ppl suffer from the disease called the lack of self-worth....

often we find ourselves thinking...What am i in this world for?Am i any use?will my life ever make a difference? And so on...These questions might be endless but the answer is one...YES...



U r worth...



what i have realised so far is we are all sent on this earth for a special purpose... it might be really small...it might also include just helping someone...

so just keep helping....

we often find ourselves comparing our actions and our image with those of others...

we want to become this and that and often like one of those popular guys or gals...

but finally we end up realising that we didnt have to be one of them...we just had to be ouselves...



there is one of my cousions....he seems so perfect...just so perfect...

he is already select in MIT.is a maths genius, has already devoted more than 500 hours of his little life already in socil service(volunteering for social causes), and is musically talented..,he is also an athlete and is a part of NJ national running team... he is doing everything that gives him satisfaction which brings him even closer to perfection...

we dont have to be like him to be satisfied...
we just have to be ourselves...and if u are able to help even five ppl faithfully, if u r able to make a few ppl smile ,if u r able to spread even a little bit of love....
Ur life was successful .and u can die completely satisfied, because your life was some worth,
u certainly helped a few ppl live a better life and most of all...
u helped make this world a better place to live...
And that was all u were ever expected to do....
try doing it today and trust me, u'll sleep satisfied...

Thursday, June 26, 2008

My First Heartbreak!!!

I know this is a weird topic to write your very first blog... but i think all of us,at least the teenagers ,do suffer heartbreaks at least once...so may be my my experience just helps you to uncomplicate some things at least ....



so this is the way it goes...

there was this guy at the tuition... he wasn't really handsome or something... but i liked him... and was obsessed with him for one whole year...

And after 10th standard , he went for his studies to Delhi(no,he didnt go to delhi but thts the safest and the most general place that i can name)... and he was gone ... and ithought that i would never see him again.. never ever....



and i cant say that i was entirely sad ... coz i knew that i had just got a chance to move on and finally overcome my long term obsession....



But it turns out that i was actually wrong...

the problem was we were friends.... And so he called me up...All the way from delhi....

And trust me, i can't say i was really happy about it... Because i was scared, scared of falling in love with him....again...
In the beginning when we had first met, and i had first fallen in love with him, i had thought that he was not like the other boys, that he was different...
But it turned out that i was wrong again....
He was the same kind...Flirt....liar ....And highly insensitive...
after a few days that he had been there...he called....and kept calling again and again(generally,as a friend)and was then that he started saying things like 'i love you' and stuff...and i actually believed him....
and then it turns out that he was doing it all for a few laughs...

I might not be a big deal for many girls...those who actually understand boys and understand their insensitivity... but it was a very big deal for me...me who expects every human being to atleast have the basic human feelings....

and my heart had broken that day... not because he didn't love me...i didn't want a relationship either....
but because ,my trust had broken, trust on him that he would understand, atleast him, who's beliefs had seemed to be so perfect..........
but that doesn't mean that i am going to punish myself by losing a friend......
its all his fault that he did not understand... and i think i am going yo forgive him for that.......

i can't spend my whole life holding grudges against people....i have to move on.......