Thursday, June 26, 2008

My First Heartbreak!!!

I know this is a weird topic to write your very first blog... but i think all of us,at least the teenagers ,do suffer heartbreaks at least once...so may be my my experience just helps you to uncomplicate some things at least ....



so this is the way it goes...

there was this guy at the tuition... he wasn't really handsome or something... but i liked him... and was obsessed with him for one whole year...

And after 10th standard , he went for his studies to Delhi(no,he didnt go to delhi but thts the safest and the most general place that i can name)... and he was gone ... and ithought that i would never see him again.. never ever....



and i cant say that i was entirely sad ... coz i knew that i had just got a chance to move on and finally overcome my long term obsession....



But it turns out that i was actually wrong...

the problem was we were friends.... And so he called me up...All the way from delhi....

And trust me, i can't say i was really happy about it... Because i was scared, scared of falling in love with him....again...
In the beginning when we had first met, and i had first fallen in love with him, i had thought that he was not like the other boys, that he was different...
But it turned out that i was wrong again....
He was the same kind...Flirt....liar ....And highly insensitive...
after a few days that he had been there...he called....and kept calling again and again(generally,as a friend)and was then that he started saying things like 'i love you' and stuff...and i actually believed him....
and then it turns out that he was doing it all for a few laughs...

I might not be a big deal for many girls...those who actually understand boys and understand their insensitivity... but it was a very big deal for me...me who expects every human being to atleast have the basic human feelings....

and my heart had broken that day... not because he didn't love me...i didn't want a relationship either....
but because ,my trust had broken, trust on him that he would understand, atleast him, who's beliefs had seemed to be so perfect..........
but that doesn't mean that i am going to punish myself by losing a friend......
its all his fault that he did not understand... and i think i am going yo forgive him for that.......

i can't spend my whole life holding grudges against people....i have to move on.......

7 comments:

A$hley said...

hey yaar its awsome
seriously gr8

poorvi said...

rupali......
you never thought that you cud tell all this tu me since i am not a that good frnd of urs..
but now dat i hav came tu know bout ur feelings so closely...
i can say that you are a damn truthful girl , not a bit of fake attitude or something.

i feel fortunate tu hav u as mah frnd.

vky said...

now thats what is called a perfect blog rather than some abstract things about happiness blah blah.

the inner one when it writes is the best.

hey wait actually lemme tell you i dont know you.
i just came across your blog and found it was worth wasting an hour.
so here i am.

sumithablani said...

naice......

Saumya said...

the first's can be really harsh, you came out of it really well and handled the situation nicely like you always do

Arpit Jain said...

This is what drew me towards you back in april..one of the best qualities u have singhal madam..:)
on a genuine note..one of the best qualities..knowing more and more about urself and actually bringing in a change..

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