Thursday, October 22, 2009


'Life is a mystery, its no good trying to figure it out'.
even when i knew it, i still couldn't understand and explain to myself the cause of so much suffering. i have complete faith in god, and yet all he does seemed so confusing and wrong. if god existed, why would the others suffer?
it was like the answer clicked just like that and i knew the reason why....
god is a father who does not think that it is right to teach everything to the kids verbally, and even if he does, there are some things he wants them to experience. its not poverty and other bad stuff that i am talking about. i am talking about sympathy and compassion. its only in the time of each other's suffering that mankind comes it human nature, or whatever it be, but without suffering, there would be no compassion and without compassion, no humanity.
we fight with each other all the time, but in the time of an illness, a death, poverty and terror, its wonderful to see how we come close to each other. suffering only glorifies love, and love is all that matters.
if you would not be in a problem, how would your friends help you and if they dont help, how would you know that they love you like they do.
if you would not help people, there would be no way to show kindness and ultimately, there will be a hole in you, somewhere, for missing something.
Suffering is never bad, love covers it all up.

Friday, August 21, 2009

A life too fast!!!

when i think about our lives today, i realize that each of us our living lives that are too fast for each of us to cope up with. we live in three stages of life at the same time, the past , the present, and the future. and yet we forget that the only one that matters is present. we forget taht the present does not depend on the past and neither does the future on the present and none of us can be sure what might just happen the next moment. and yet we either live our daily lives on yesterday's consequences or tomorrow's plans. we simply hurry over to tomorrow without even living today completely. why?
i dont get it. as we become more and more technologically more and more advanced, why do we only think about making stuff that is faster? i know time is money, but why is money so inportant? in this world, where we use telephones, cell phones, internet, smaller chips and so many diverse means of communication, we get even lonlier day by day. have you ever wondered that despite of so many ways you have to talk to your friends, why are you still lonely. as our world is getting smaller, aren't each of us simply getting lonelier.
why dont we just commune with people more in person? technology should be our necessity, not our way of living. right?
there is still nothing that science could build that would make a foetus grow faster, that could replace a mother's care, that could replace love's intution, that could give us what we need most to live,LOVE, HAPPINESS AND TRUE SATIFACTION.
in this 21st century, have you ever wondered why we need so many psychiatrists? its simply because we need someone to talk to. something that a robot, a heartless machine can never do. we are rushing through everything and living for necessaties like money and luxury.
hey! get a grip, slow down and take a deep breath. look around you. there is no moment that is ordinary, no day that has been fruitless and nothing that is entirely pointless.
a smiling child, a romantic couple and a group have friends have a lot to teach. you are not a loser if you lose, because you can never lose anything and you never lost anything. you are never better than yesterday and will never be better tomorrow. all that you will be is yourself, which is absolutely the best.
i am happy, even when i ma not at the top anymore, even when i will never be what the others wish taht i could because i see someone smile everyday, at me or at the others. and i know that life goes on and that it always will go on ...
calm down, becuse in order to win so much, we sometimes forget about some important things that we lose. its not all about money you know, its actually more about LIFE....

Monday, March 2, 2009



Sunday, January 11, 2009


the title of the post itself speaks so much. but yet, i write further. because i know that if i don't write, i will kill my thoughts.
there are moments in our life when all of us seem lost. its like you are drowning, and have hit the bottom and then you realise that this was no pool at all and that the ground that you needed was around you, but you kept searching for a sea to deliberately drown. its a feeling worse that you would have had, if you had actually hit the bottom bcoz then you would have had the sea to blame. this time , you can do nothing but cry.and then you ask yourself," why did no one help me? why didn't my angel come?". and you realise that it wasn't angel that had come, god had come inside you to hold you up, and you had resisted with all your might
this is how i feel right now and i am sure that this is one of those moments of my life whom we call THE MOMENT OF TRUTH.
i have always wanted to be good. you can say, i had made it the aim of my life to be good. to help, to serve, to be kind and to make people happy. i would sometimes just make a fool of myself, just to make the others laugh. and when they did, i would be happy, because i made someone smile.
my whole life had started revolving around keeping others happy. not pleasing them(there is a difference), but just making them happy. when someone would be sad, i would try to make him/her laugh.
then came love, a lot of love in my life. from friends, from family, and from god.
but there are mistakes you make, really little ones sometimes, but in the end you end up feeling pathetic about them.
a similar thing has happened to me.
but now i think i have learnt a lesson. what i have learnt is forgiveness. self forgiveness which i believe is more difficult than forgiving others.
what i have realised is that if you are really sorry about something, and you cant confess your sin to the other person, all that is necessary is to kneel down and ask for your own as well as god's forgiveness and then do some good to the other person. and then you can proudly move on, because its easy to improve your image in other people's eyes. but its difficult to do so when you have fallen in your.
but then, realising that we are all humans after all,and its our birth RIGHT to make mistakes, its just OK, and its just OK to move on.
and so as i move on, all i can say is that even when i have done bad to someone, i am sure i am capable of helping again, of serving even more, and of making people even more happier...

I walk lonely today
On this crowded street
Wondering how I move on
Wondering why I retreat

People ask me who I am
I walk undefined
I don’t believe in the lies they say
I only believe in truth that’s mine

I love to love
Don’t like to follow fashion
I will act insane
It’s my greatest passion

When paths divide
I take my own course
Call me bohemian
I don’t act by force

I am humbly arrogant
Though respect the power
And I can walk through the night
Even in the lonely hours…

I believe, I doubt
You may call it insanity
But I dare to be differentAnd I call it originality….